Hello all, how are you?
I wanted to post a quick update on why I have been MIA for the past few months.
The first half of 2018 has been pretty tough for us as a family… we have had a lot of things going on and my health hasn’t been great for the past few months with a combination of my Depression, Anxiety and Fibromyalgia – I will admit (something I have not been doing) that I have been struggling. I am struggling to cope with many aspects of life, but there are other things which are going so well and definitely keep me going.
We had issues with an ex-associate which had a huge knock-on effect on my health which has been pretty rough. It all came to a head in January and finally concluded in the middle of April. It brought with it a lot of trust, emotional and turbulent feelings which I struggled to process. At times it reduced me to breaking point, but here I am fighting the negativity and getting through it with the support of my wonderful friends and family.
Sadly, on Sunday 18th March my Gran passed away. My Gran was 93 years old. Gran was my last surviving grandparent. Gran had spent the last couple of years of her life in a care home in Fort William, and with it being 350miles away and my health making it difficult to travel any more than an hour I had not seen my Gran as recently as I wished I had. We were planning to take holidays this summer to go up North and spend time with Gran and also do some camping but our plans were too late. My Gran will always remain in my heart and in my thoughts and I have so many happy memories to scrapbook, which I will be sharing with you soon.
Since then my Dad has also been having health concerns which have involved multiple hospital trips including a couple of overnight stays and will be going into hospital in June for further tests so I will be staying with him for approximately a week when he gets home from hospital.
As a result of the family issues we have been facing my crafty mojo seemed to go on an extended vacation as I had absolutely no motivation or inspiration to create, however over the last couple of weeks I have been working on some scrapbooking layouts and am glad to say that I AM BACK!!!
Around a month ago I watched a film which really made me stop and think, it made me realise that I am enough.
The film was “The Greatest Showman”.
The song was “This Is Me”.
The lyrics of this song particularly touched me, especially the following part of the lyrics:
I am not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts
I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one’ll love you as you are
But I won’t let them break me down to dust
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious
When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
When I watched this film and really listened to the words, they made me stop and think about who I am. They made me realise that I am enough. They made me think about all the things that I have achieved and continue to achieve. They made me realise that no matter what hurdles my health throws at me, I will fight my way through them and do my best.
The song “This Is Me” by Keala Settle inspired a scrapbook layout, which I want to share with you.
I wanted to create this 12x12inch scrapbook layout to document the realisation that I have come to that despite my battle scars, despite what I have been through in the past, despite my daily bruises from my Fibro-related falls, this is MY STORY and THIS IS ME!!
I used a could of Shimmerz products to create my background then a Kaisercraft diecut background where I backed the stars with various pattern papers from my stash. I then selected a couple of pattern papers to add matting layers to my photographs and diecuts/stamped ephemera from my stash to embellish this page. Finally I used black foam Thickers which have a gold foil top layer for my title and a “Right Now” flair from BrambleFox.
I am really happy with how this scrapbook layout turned out and it seemed to kickstart my mojo as since then I have created quite a few layouts which I will be sharing with you soon (I still need to photograph them lol).
Hope you like this layout as much as I do and I will try my best to post more regularly to this blog as I would love to get some interaction going and hear your thoughts on my projects.
Sending you all lots of love, and thank you for visiting my blog.
xxx Love Laura xxx